Emma's Bad Day Pedicure

Our sweet Emma has been having a little bit of a rough go.  Ever since she started Kindergarten something has shifted with her and I feel like she is losing her strong confident self and it scares me.  I so desperately want her to hold on to that part of her because it is one thing I admire very most about her.  I was getting ready to drop her off at her new tumbling class that she had been put in and as I walked her in I felt something change with her and all of a sudden she was scared to go and was crying.  My heart hurt so much for her.  Luckily for us there was a girl in her class that she knew and she helped cheer Emma up so I could leave.  My 2 littles ended up falling asleep in the car so I just drove around and chatted with Kyle about what had happened with Emma.  I ended up getting back to tumbling a little early so I walked in to watch for a little bit.  As I watched Emma I became very aware that her skill level was way below everybody else's.  I was slightly confused at what was going on.  I then watched her attempt to do a backbend, which she cannot do on her own but they were making her do anyway, and fall flat on her head twice.  I wasn't really sure what was going on but still stayed back.  They finally let them go and I watched Emma walk out and the second she saw me she burst into tears and told me that the teacher had been so mean to her.  The girl that I had left her with came out and I asked her what had happened and she told me that Emma seemed like she was behind everybody and the teacher was not very nice to her and that she kept telling Emma to do things when Emma would tell her she couldn't do it.  I was furious and went home to call the owner of the studio.  She unfortunately was out of town but said she would call me on Monday when she got back.  I so desperately wanted to turn her day around so Kyle got home and Emma and I headed out to spend some time together.  We went to get pedicures and then to dinner.  While we are at dinner we were talking about everything and Emma told me, "Sometimes I feel like you don't love me as much as you love my brothers and Tessa."  Epic Mom Fail!!  That was so hard to hear.  I do admit that Emma has always been my easiest going child and I'm sure because she's in the middle she tends to get over looked but I in no means love her less than my other kids.   We had a long chat about how hard Mommy works to make sure every one of them feels loved and that I'm doing my very best but sometimes I fall short.  It was a nice reset for her and I and I really hope that we were able to make some changes for both of us.
This girl is such a special little girl and I count my blessings and thank Heavenly Father everyday for sending her to our family.  I hope one day she will look back and realize how much I do love her and how proud we are of her.